Casa.

Home: the place where a person, family or household lives. (North American Encarta Dictionary)

It's not the most interesting or eye-catching definitions, however it is true. I know the saying "Home is where the Heart is", a house is not a home until there is heart...or just a shitload of your stuff. Mine, is awesome. Simple as.

It's nice to click the "refresh" button, after a stressful, unproductive year I'm hoping I won't fall into bad habits again. They (whoever "they" might be) say that it takes 28 days to make or break a habit (much like the film I guess, the Danny Boyle one. I haven't seen the Betty Thomas one yet.) So hopefully 28 days later I'll have good habits running all over the place. Good habits dominating my world. College, work, savings, rehearsals, reading...the list goes on and on. Maybe writing up lists could be a new good habit, we'll see.

I was just handed a bacon roll, my day has improved vastly.

Dolore.

"Fuck the pain away."
Fuck the pain away
Fuck the pain away
Fuck the pain away
Fuck the pain away
Fuck the pain away
Fuck the pain away
Fuck the pain away.

Oh, Peaches you pleasant woman.
Which is not what I'm doing, no. But it is a nice thought though. Imagine if it were that simple? Fucking pain away. I'm feeling so hollow I can hardly type. Fuck it, I'll write about it later. My hands are too shaky.

Paura

I'm hoping this change will be for the better. September is coming; I know exactly what that means so I better get used to it. It'll be good in some areas, in one area though...well I'm not too sure but I have an idea of how I'll feel.

To have a hold on someone, for someone to be able to control you without them knowing it. What's going to happen once they find out? It's a terrifying thought.
People, friends, loved-ones; they can make you happy with a click of their fingers. However that means they can make you just as sad just as fast. So to those who have "the hold", is it better to have them in your life; have you living in fear yet with the benefit of their presence, or is it better to temporarily suffer and cut them out? The latter seems smarter and so much more sensible. But...people are selfish.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel, and it's a fucking train. It's going to smash straight into you. And it's going to fucking hurt.